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It has been quite the year. I haven't used this space for writing that much because I've spent more time handwriting in my journal (which was part of a manifesto that still guides me) and have been keeping more things to myself. Don't get me wrong, I still wear my heart on my sleeve (clearly - haha) and haven't lost my "art" of creating "awkward moments". In fact, the move to Troy was hard and all of my old "stuff" returned - lots of looping around and around again in self-doubt. Before moving, I had so. much. fear. of somehow returning to a version of myself that wouldn't be liked or that I would be too something. But I see now that even that version of me, the one that reaches and tries too hard and worries too much and seems overly eager, deserves love because we *all* have moments like this. It's being a human and it can be difficult to navigate the ocean of feelings, but I believe it's in this space (fear and feelings) that we are truly connected!
The fear I had leading up to it (the move) ended up being worse than the experience because Troy has been nothing short of wonderful. We've been welcomed into an amazing community of people (and animals!), I've poured my heart into my art and music, developed my own affinity for microbes, and Brendan's building is oh-so-close!
Despite the short-sighted vision (of some) for the future of our planet and all beings and all the actions against it, I am still full of gratitude, hope, and possibility for the New Year. Here's to finding moments of connection and sharing kindness to everyone, especially those that we don't fully understand. Let our hearts be bridges because our lights shine brighter together.
While there are many things OUT of my control, I am grateful for the ability to make silly greetings like this one and hope that they can bring some cheer.
So Happy Holidays dear ones. Hope you enjoy our little greeting and that it puts a smile on your face.
♥p.s. dearest garden of friends (old, new and reconnected): thank you for all of your support this year. My heart truly felt held by each of you in the hardest of moments. Thank you. Remember, I've always got your back too. :)
Previous greetings:
this might make George Michael roll in his grave
have a holly jolly christmas
a sparkle partner christmas
nature’s glitter
yay christmas!
christmas with lavi
Currently loving this new video by Vanessa Carlton. So pretty.
Also, Grooveshark is no more (which really IS better for the artists, but I just liked making the playlists!), but apologies in advance for all broken playlists throughout the site.
“In the end, only three things matter: how much you loved, how gently you lived, and how gracefully you let go of things not meant for you.”
--Buddhist Saying
Dear lovelies, thanks for coming! I hope you had fun!
there's lots to write about, but for now let's start with some music. hope you all had a lovely easter.
hello march, it's the last month before my birthday. 28 has not been my favorite year. astrology friends joke about it being my "saturn return". whatever the hell it is, it has been r-o-u-g-h, but the words of processing these feelings are saved for the moleskin and book margins. so, for the last month of this year...let's be kind to each other (starting with compassion). and let's hope 29 shines.** because the stronger part of you (from other moments in time) knows that it can.
♫ it was still light at 5 pm yesterday. yes. spring is on it's way.
♫ spotify
“I hope you will have a wonderful year, that you'll dream dangerously and outrageously, that you'll make something that didn't exist before you made it, that you will be loved and that you will be liked, and that you will have people to love and to like in return. And, most importantly (because I think there should be more kindness and more wisdom in the world right now), that you will, when you need to be, be wise, and that you will always be kind.” ― Neil Gaiman
sometimes everything to think has already been thought and everything to be said has already been said. thankfully, the interwebs makes it easy to go through the stacks of words and you find thoughts in beautifully stitched sentences ready to share. i've been riding the wave of winter blues. it's not terribly fun, but it will pass. one molecule at a time. i hope you all had a happy new year. here's to 2013. ❤
//the night i took myself on a date to see my favorite band, azure ray. soko was delightful, singing of mermaids and songs which she coined as sad. i drank a red wine and ate a fried-green tomato pizza - it was delicious. ♥
Night falls quicker. Boots are worn. Hot chai instead of cold. Soon there will be day trips taken upstate to see the changing leaves. This new album is a wonderful way to welcome the shift in season. I have so many good things I say about it, but just listen for yourselves. <3
It was time to get the guitar out and I had the best entourage of friends for support. Thank you all for coming and to John for taping!p.s. This guitar group is the nicest and most supportive group ever. You're all the best. Thank you for welcoming me into your musical family! xo
Hello July,Summer is here. Summer is hot. The kitties sleep on their back with their bellies in the air.We have many fun plans this month, including a day of berry picking and running through wildflowers. Mischief will be made at this year's MP3 experiment and we will enjoy the rooftop with our French friends. The guitar will be re-strung with attempts to play at an open mic.July means beach days, clear skies and puffy clouds.The sky will shift and the greens will begin to fade ever-so-slightly. This will stir some feelings, but we will enjoy the moments because we are learning to live with change.
I just found a new band that I adore. The Paper Kites. I'm sure they have been around for awhile, but I think they are wonderful.
I love how magical their videos are! Who wants to have a mega pillow fight in NYC?
They will definitely be added to future playlists!
The last few days of May were fun, really fun. Lots of time with amazing friends - the garden is in full bloom! There was a late-night-birthday-dance-off and binges of watching superhero movies while making funfetti cookies (which make a delicious breakfast). A stolen shirt from a cute boy keeps us warm in an air conditioned office.And now onto June...the time of year where everything after work seems golden. The buildings glow and the sky changes from blue to pink to fire orange and on... the sun is so pretty.Please bring more sunshine and less rain. We certainly don't want it like the summer of rain a few years back, although we do love playing in the rain.June 21 will bring the longest day of the year and our friend will visit his childhood home of Columbia. We are ecstatic for him!This month will also bring a trip to the cornland, with a much needed reunion with some of our favorite people in the world. It's been far too long. There will be tears and hugs and cheers. Yay love and weddings!We will finally get to play in the dirt, now that we've made contact with the community garden owner.It's going to be a good summer.
Wow. This cover blew me away. So, good.
I won't get madAnd I won't break in two'Cause I understand youI'll take this changeAnd let my clothes soak with rainAs I study orchid bloomsAnd some can't live unless they feed on fallen leavesAnd so you'll let me down to come alive when you comfort meI've watched you change,I've heard your words rearrangeWay back from the startAnd if I did teach you anything at allI hope it was to love with all your heartAnd they open wide with imperfect symmetryAnd so you'll love like you, and I will love like meAnd to be rebornThey have to go to seedSo angel, you will have to set me free//